so i ran into the wall. and broke my face. its not rly broken but it sure does feel like it. did i mention i ran clear through the wall, or my arm did. yeah giant hole in wall now. like not a fist sized hole but like half of the wall is gone sized hole. my face. ouch. it hurts rly bad. it ran into the door frame when the rest of me hit the wall. its purple and swollen. it hurts like hell. my boob is purple too i guess it hit the door frame as well. it was funny when it happend but then the pain kicked in. now it just hurts. stupid wall. poor face. i'll just tell people roxie beat me up.

1. Taken a picture naked? yes
2. Painted your room? yes
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? yes
4. Drove a car? yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? yes
6. Have a crush? yes
7. Been dumped? yes
8. Stole money from a friend? no
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? yes
10. Been in a fist fight? no
11. Snuck out of your house? yes
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? yes
13. Been arrested? no
14. Made out with a stranger? yes
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? yes
16. Left your house without telling your parents? yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? no
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? yes
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? yes
20. Seen someone die? yes
21. Been on a plane? yes
22. Kissed a picture? yes
23. Slept in until 3? yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yes
26. Made a snow angel? no
27. Played dress up? yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? yes
29. Been lonely? yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
32. Felt an earthquake? no
33. Touched a snake? no
34. Ran a red light? yes
35. Been suspended from school? no
36. Had detention? yes
37. Been in a car accident? yes
38. Hated the way you look? yes
39. Witnessed a crime? yes
40. Pole danced? no
41. Been lost? yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? no
43. Felt like dying? yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? yes
46. Sang karaoke? no
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? yes
48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yes
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? no
50. Kissed in the rain? yes
51. Sang in the shower? yes
52. Made love in a park? yes
53. Had a dream that you married someone? yes
54. Glued your hand to something? no
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? no
57. Been a cheerleader? no
58. Sat on a roof top? yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? no
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yes
61. Played chicken? yes
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? yes
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? yes
64. Broken a bone? yes
65. Been easily amused? yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? yes
68. Cheated on a test? yes
69. Forgotten someone's name? yes
70. Slept naked? yes
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? yes
73. Blacked out from drinking? yes
74. Played a prank on someone? yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? yes
76. Made out to anything not human? no
77. Failed a class? yes
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? yes
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? no
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? no
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? no
82. Thrown strange objects? yes
83. Felt like killing someone? no
84. Felt like running away? yes
85. Ran away? yes
86. Did drugs? yes
87. Had detention and not attend it? yes
89. Made a parent cry? yes
90. Cried over someone? yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? yes
92. Dated someone more than once? yes
93. Had/Have a dog? yes
95. Own an instrument? yes
96. Been in a band? no
97. Drank 25 sodas in a day? no
98. Broken a CD? yes
99. Shot a gun? no
100. Had feelings for one of your best/good friends? yes

im fucking 33.5! goddamn real age bastards!

everyone is poopy. the end.

wot the fuck am i suppose to do with myspace. i had one, cos i wanted to see someones pic. so today i tried messing with it to see what all the fuss was about and i dont know wot the fuck im suppose to do. its irritating the fuck out of me! wot the fuck is it? a blog, a ....hell i dont know!

i love that.

so i had a pretty fun weekend. we were celebrating nu and angies birthdays. they are so cute together, all little and asian. sometimes i just wanna carry them around in my pocket.
we went out to turners falls on friday. there was grilling and eating and wet fun. nu and marissa did all the cooking while roxie, angie and i just sat around in the water as they brought us food. we commented on our lazyness and then were to lazy to care.

i think some of our lesbian cooties are gonna rub off on roxie, poor little straigh girl surounded by all the crazy lesbians. she secretly likes it though, dont ya roxie?

then on saturday we headed off to shreveport to do some gambling, it took us about 5 hours to get there becuase they had 20 shut down cos of some rly bad accident. we got there eventually though and had a good time loosing our money. nu being the big baller that she is kept feeding the machine twenties like nothing. we all lost most of our money. roxie came out even. the only lucky one was my friend joann who won 200$ buck with her first 5$. it amazes me how all the little blue haired old ladies just feed the machine money and lots of it. they win and it doesnt even fase them cos theyve spent so much. its evil to say but i wanted to jack on of them for their loot. just one god! but allas i controlled my urges. we all left a little broke but its ok. on the ride back roxie, nu and angie decided to give us all stripper names and theyve named me sasha. so yeah. oh and my porn name i belive is muffin. i dunno, i think they were smoking something herbal in the car.

anyway it was a fun filled weekend, i hope nu and angie enjoy their eddible panties. dont eat to fast girls.

i got back del rio late last night. i had a really good time just sorta hanging out with my family. del rio has a three day festival in the "plaza" to celebrate cinco de mayo so i was there all three days. i ate sooooo much mexican food! my tia has a puesto that sells gorditas and tacos enrollados. shit that food was good. i ate all sorts of mexican goodies. hell i think i tried everything from elotes con butter and chile to tacos the fajitas y carne asada. i also had a drink i had never tried before it was called a rusca. tenia soda de toronja, pina, limon, naranja, chile en polvo and beer. it was freakin good. i think it was called a rusca im not too sure tho. but yeah all in all i had a great time celebrating cinco de mayo in a little border town.

on our way back home we stoped by san marcos to shop at the outlet stores. i didnt buy anything but my gf got a coach purse for her mom for a pretty cheap price, she was happy about that. my mom bought a whole bunch of clothes. i was so fucking tired that i just wanted to leave. so yeah.

this entry reads so bland. i apologize. im tired.

so i was making this scrapbook for my mom, as a moms day prezzie. well i finished it last night and i just couldnt wait to give it to my mom. so i drove over to her house today and i gave it to her.

she cried she liked it so much that she cried and i got all mushie indside. i know its cliche to say but since shes been sick ive totaly appreciated her more. its a scary things to realize you can lose this person thats always been there.

i hope she comes with us to del rio this weekend. it will totaly do her good. she gets all happy and beaming when shes around my aunts.

we need some goodness before the bad of the chemo that is too come. shes looked so good lately that i tend to forget shes got this bad thing inside her. enought of that tho.

point is i made my mom happy
i in turn am happy too
im gonna have lots of fun this weekend
i wont have to be at work for 5 days!! woooohooooo

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went to see sin city today, its one of the strangest movies ive seen in a while, but me being a strange girl myself enojoyed it very much. it ran a little long but had plenty of hot girls in it to make up for it. i was very annoyed tho and the number of knuckle heads that hooted and hollard everytime they showed tits on the screen. mensos! fuckers acted like they had never seen boobs before. the movie had tons and tons of cool people in it and was directed my robert rodriguez (gotta support the mexicans). my gf hated it but wots to be expected we have such fucking different taste in everything.

other than that i spent the day hanging out with roxie at the mall bought myself a coulpe of t-shirts seeing as thats all that i can be bothered to wear. bought the old ball and chain some shirts and some jeans. cos im cool like that.

tooks this survey thingy cos its late and im now bored.

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Alex
Birthday:	08-28-80
Birthplace:	ciudad acuna
Current Location:	fort worth, texas
Eye Color:	brown
Hair Color:	black
Height:	5'4
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right
Your Heritage:	mexican
The Shoes You Wore Today:	brown and cream addidas
Your Weakness:	girls wearing glasses with hair falling over their eyes
Your Fears:	cheating
Your Perfect Pizza:	cheese, mushrooms, and jalapenos
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	lose weight
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	fuck
Thoughts First Waking Up:	5 more minutes...
Your Best Physical Feature:	lips
Your Bedtime:	have none
Your Most Missed Memory:	if i could remember it then it wouldnt be missed
Pepsi or Coke:	coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	wendys
Single or Group Dates:	group
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	tea sucks nuts
Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	coffee
Do you Smoke:	not really
Do you Swear:	fuck yeah
Do you Sing:	with the radio
Do you Shower Daily:	yeah
Have you Been in Love:	seems so
Do you want to go to College:	schools for losers. went for four years learned jack shit.
Do you want to get Married:	maybe
Do you belive in yourself:	sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	nah
Do you think you are Attractive:	sexy as hell
Are you a Health Freak:	nope
Do you get along with your Parents:	yeah
Do you like Thunderstorms:	sure why not
Do you play an Instrument:	air guitar
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yup
In the past month have you Smoked:	yup
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	nah
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	nope
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	went today
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	yuck
In the past month have you been on Stage:	nope
In the past month have you been Dumped:	nope
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	maybe
Ever been Drunk:	fuck yeah
Ever been called a Tease:	yeah
Ever been Beaten up:	nope
Ever Shoplifted:	nope
How do you want to Die:	quickly
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	happy
What country would you most like to Visit:	england
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	dun care
Favourite Hair Color:	brown
Short or Long Hair:	short
Height:	dun care
Weight:	dun care
Best Clothing Style:	wotever floats ur boat
Number of Drugs I have taken:	just one
Number of CDs I own:	shit load
Number of Piercings:	2
Number of Tattoos:	1
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	wanna be cool and say i regret nothing but thats a bunch of bullshit.
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

grrr im never satisfied with the layout of my journal. and now i dont remember wot my previous setting were so i cant change it back. i guess this will have to do for now.

i think we are going to go to dinner and movie tomorrow with my friend and her new husband so i can get to know him better. havent decided wot we are going to see yet. my friend roxie wanted me to go with her to see sin city, but i dont think i will be able to.

went over to my moms for dinner again and we made fajitas on the grill, they were soooo damn good with some pico de gallo and some frijoles rancheros. sure is good to be mexican :P

im full and off to bed.

today was a booootiful day so to try and cheer my mom up we invited her to go spend the day at the doggie park with us. i had to drag her there but i think it cheered her up. my pups had a great time, they sniffed some asses and made some new doggie friends. they were once again the smallest ones there but also the loudest. thats just the way chihuahuas are.....they think they are the shit.

im so tired today, fresh air can really wear you out. i think im gonna go shopping tomorrow, i need stuff.... well not really.....i just want stuff. speaking of wanting stuff i want a new apartment...im tired of my current one, i want a loft to be more specific. i think we are going to move into one when our lease is up. ive always wanted to live in a loft and i think this year we should be able to afford it hell its not much more that wot we are paying now for our apartments. the only reason we moved into these were cos they have a theater room, and bikes for us to use and a bunch of other shit we dont use. fuck all that i want my loft.

oh and my shitty job needs me to work form 12-12 on sunday. fuckers. and fuck me for agreeing to it.

im tired of updating and my tummy hurts cos i drank too much coffee and i think i might be PMSing. fuck. fuck. fuck

my mom was so sad today when the doctor talked about her hair falling out about two weeks after the chemo starts. shes got beautiful hair. i know i dont know wot shes going through but i cant stand to see her depressed. how is she going to fight this if she cant stop crying. im glad they gave her meds to help her cope.
maybe she thinks she will no longer be beautiful. maybe she thinks she much sicker than wot the docs think and they just dont want to tell her. i know her head must be full of wot-ifs. im scared too...that i will find a lump one day. my aunt had it too so chances are either my cousing or i will have it as well. i think there is a test that can tell me if i have the gene or wotever its called. but do i want to know? maybe.

breast are my favorite part of a womans body...too bad they can be deadly.

i sooooo dont want to hop in the shower and get ready for work, im realy starting to hate my job. its so fucking depressing. not long ago we found out that one of our best clients had gotten kicked out of our transitional housing unit cos she went back on the pipe :( she was such a good client and she was doing great...but it never fails once they are on their own they fuck up. then last night they told us that another x-client was in the hospital on an overdose of chrystal.......also a model client when she was in shelter. its amazing how drug abuse and domestic violence go hand in hand and its fucked up that nine times out of ten they either return to wotever they where using to get fuck up or they go back to the dude that was fucking them up.

on a different note everyone at my job gets on my damn nerves except for roxie..roxies cool, everyone else can suck my nuts!

damnit i had finished a perfectly good entry when i got fekkin disconnected!

anywho i was talking about the best lj community ever! its called latinoclash and im now obsessed with it, ive spent hours on it today....damn u cryss for introducing me to my lj addiction, LOL im on this thing everyday now, i gotta see who posted wot, i gotta look for new communities i gotta add new people, its ugly people, i think i need a support group, or somekind of 12 step program.

on a different note my mom has a doctors appointment tomorrow, they are doing some kind of bone scan that has to be done before they are able to start her chemo. she tells me shes afraid...of getting sick, of her hair falling out, of not being strong enough...of just giving up. i wish i could do it all for her, that i could just take her place but i know that all i can so is be there for her and i try to be. shes always been a good mom now its time for me to be a good daughter.